1/31 eats

Weight: 209.5

B- egg cream with 2 eggs, almond milk, coffee, sf davinci's
L- 2 egg omlette with bacon and cheddar cheese
S- 2 slices beef lunch meat and 1 slice provalone cheese
D- broiled steaks and sauteed spinach, glass of red wine

1/30 eats

weight: 209.5

*working 12 hour shift*
B- egg cream (2 eggs, 1/2 cup almond milk, coffee, sf davinci's)
B2- 2 egg omlette with bacon and cheese
L- shredded chicken and steamed broccoli with alfredo sauce
D- 7 buffalo wings with celery and ranch, glass of red wine

1/29 eats

Weight: 209.0

*working 12 hour shift*
B- egg cream (2 eggs, 1/2 cup almond milk, sf davinci's, coffee)
S- flax muffin with butter, herbal tea
L- chicken breast and steamed broccoli with 1/4 cup alfredo sauce
S- handful of cashews
D- bowl of LC chili (no beans) with shredded cheese and sour cream

1/28 eats

weight: 210.0

B- egg cream (cup almond milk, 2 eggs, sf davinci's, cup of coffee, ice chips), flax muffin with butter
L- 2 eggs scrambled with 2T sausage and 2T ranch dressing
D- 1/2 lb (pre cooked) ground beef with taco seasonings, shredded cheese, guacamole, sour cream, glass of red wine

1/27 eats

Weight: 210.5

B- coffee with SF french vanilla, flax muffin with butter, 2 sausage links
L- 2 eggs scrambled with 2T sausage crumbles, 2T ranch dressing
S- slice of deli ham, 1 cup unsweetened chocolate almond milk
D- roasted chicken leg and thigh, spinach salad with ranch

1/26 eats

Weight: 212.5

B- 3 eggs scrambled with sausage and shredded cheese
L- slice of black forest ham
D- broiled sirloin steak, sauteed fresh spinach, glass of red wine

1/25 eats

weight: 212.0

B- egg cream, coffee with sf french vanilla syrup
S- flax muffin with butter
L- beef fajita meat with blue cheese
D- 7 buffalo wings, celery sticks, ranch dressing

1/24 eats

Weight: 213.5 (paying the price for nachos in water weight)

B (late)- Egg cream (2 eggs, 1/2 cup almond milk, 1 cup coffee, splash of sf syrup)
S- flax muffin with butter
S2- 2 string cheese with herbal tea
D- breakfast wrap- LC tortilla with 2 scrambled eggs, 1/4 cup sausage, cheese, 2tbs ranch dressing

1/23 eats

weight: 211.0

B- coffee with sf french vanilla syrup, flax muffin with butter, 3 sausage links
L- chicken breast in hot sauce, ranch dressing on the side, diet coke
D- Nachos (yes, WAY off plan), diet coke

1/22 eats

weight: 211.5

Working 12 hour shift
B- 3 sausage links, coffee with sf french vanilla syrup
S- flax meal muffin with butter
L- chicken breast with cream of mushroom sauce
S- handful of cashews
D- 2 chicken brats, 1/2 cup cottage cheese, glass of red wine

1/21 eats

Weight: 211.0

B- Coffee with SF hazelnut syrup, 2 sausage links, flax muffin with butter
L- 2 McDonald's double cheeseburgers (no bun, no onion) made my stomach hurt for 3 hrs after
D- roasted chicken thigh/drumstick, salad with blue cheese dressing

1/20 Inauguration Day Eats

weight: 211.5

B- coffee with SF hazelnut syrup, 2 sausages, flax muffin with butter.
L- kosher hot dog (no bun) with a bit of ketchup and mustard
S- small handful macadamia nuts
D- pork chop and broccoli with cream of mushroom sauce

1/19 eats

weight: 212.0

B- coffee with SF french vanilla, 3 sausage links
L- 4oz pork chop, flax muffin with butter, can of diet pepsi
D- 8 hot wings, celery, ranch dressing

1/18 eats

Weight: 212.0

B- 2 sausage links, flax muffin with butter, coffee with sf hazelnut syrup
L- small bowl of beef fajita meat with blue cheese dressing, can of DMD
D- pork chop, sauteed mushrooms, glass of red wine
S- herbal tea

1/17 eats

Weight 213.0

B- 2 sausage links, coffee with sf hazelnut syrup
L- can of tuna, hardboiled egg, scoop of mayo, can of diet coke
D- spinach salad with 2 hardboiled eggs and about 1/3 cup fajita meat, glass of red wine

1/16 eats

Weight: 212.0

*working 12 hour shift*
B- hazelnut coffee, 2 egg omlette with ham and cheese
S- flax muffin with butter
L- tuna and spinach salad with hardboiled egg and ranch dressing
S- handful of macadamia nuts
D- 5 buffalo wings, celery, ranch dressing, glass of red wine

Exercise: Put the discharge hat back on today, so I'm guessing I did well in excess of 10 miles of walking during my shift.

1/15 eats

Weight: 212.0

*working 12 hour shift today*
B- coffee with sf french vanilla syrup, 3 sausage links
S- flax muffin with butter, herbal tea
L- spinach salad with turkey, hard boiled egg, blue cheese dressing; water
S- 1 handful macadamia nuts
D- 2 over easy eggs and 3 sausage links, glass of red wine

1/14 eats

Weight: 214.0

B- coffee with sf french vanilla syrup, 3 sausage links, flax muffin with butter
L- baked chicken thigh, handful of macadamia nuts
D- 2 chicken thighs in marinara sauce, spinach and tomato salad with bleu cheese, 1 glass red wine

1/13 eats

Weight: 214.0

B- coffee with SF hazelnut syrup, 2 sausage links, flax muffin with butter
L- 2-3 oz leftover pot roast, 1/2 cup cottage cheese
S- 2oz cashews, diet mountain dew
D- 8 hot wings, celery with ranch
S- herbal tea, 1/2 cup cottage cheese

1/12 eats

Weight: 215.0

B- 2 sausage links, flax muffin with butter, coffee with SF hazelnut syrup
L- 4oz chicken breast with hot sauce and 2tbs bleu cheese dressing, 1 handful mixed cashews and macadamia nuts, can of diet mountain dew
D- chicken and broccoli in white wine sauce. Glass of red wine


Exercise: shoveling 6" of wet snow off my driveway

Today's eats

My first goal is to blog everything I eat. All of it, even the bad shit. I know bad shit happens, but maybe forcing myself to write it down here will at least get me to think about if it is worth it.

I am following a low carb/low glycemic diet recommended to me by my doctor. I am not eating only red meat and butter, and I am not going to give myself a heart attack.

So without further ado, here we go!

Breakfast- 2 eggs, 2 sausage links 3 carbs
Lunch- 4oz chicken breast with hot sauce, 2tbs bleu cheese dressing.
1 flax muffin with butter
Snack- handful of roasted peanuts
Dinner- 6oz pot roast, 3/4 cup sauteed mushrooms, 1 glass red wine

All about me, pillows and blankets will be provided.

There is nothing quite like a blank page, an idea about what you want to write, and having no words to put to paper. I'm going to spare you my life story, as for the most part its the story of thousands of girls throughout the country. I'll give you the highlights, fill in gaps as I see fit, and hope that I don't lose what few people may be reading this.

The quick and dirty:
28 years old, grew up in Alaska (great place to visit, don't want to live there again), met my now husband Caleb when I was 18, moved to Colorado, married him, adopted 2 evil cats, went to college, graduated, bought a house, quit my job, and am now a glorified housewife hoping to have kids in the near future. The catch is summed up in a word: cancer.

Cancer is something that has been a part of my existence for over 6 years now. In 2001, Caleb was diagnosed with it, and has brought us to where we are today. He went through 2 surgeries, 3 rounds of chemo, weeks of puking, weight loss, hair loss, and all he got was "congratulations, you're alive, but you're also infertile. Good thing you banked some sperm before you went into surgery". The cancer was in remission, but 6 years later, we are now having to deal with the infertile part.

Our journey to this point has been nearly a year long. We attempted many less invasive treatments this summer, but I did not respond. So now we are gearing up for Operation IVF, scheduled for summer 2009. My goal right now is to drop 30-40 pounds before we begin cycling. At this point, this is going to be a weightloss blog, that will likely morph into an IVF blog when the time comes. No lies, no excuses. Just me and my inner demons. The time has come for me to take care of me, so I can be the best spawnling growth unit possible.