Where there is a will, there will be a way.

3/20

2009-03-20T19:30:00.000-07:00

weight: don't remember

B- 2 egg ham and cheese omlette
L- 4 slices bacon
D- smoked meat platter

3/29 eats

2009-03-19T09:23:00.001-07:00

weight: 199.5

B- egg cream with 2 eggs

3/18 eats

2009-03-18T13:58:00.000-07:00

weight: 199.0

B- egg cream with 2 eggs
L- hamburger with guacamole, fresh veggies with ranch dressing
D- 4 slices bacon, glass red wine

3/17 eats

2009-03-17T10:20:00.001-07:00

weight: 200.0

B- egg cream with 2 eggs
L- 2 mcdonalds double cheeseburgers no bun
D- machaca and 2 scrambled eggs with cheese and sour cream

1 hour vinyasa class

3/16 eats

2009-03-16T13:17:00.001-07:00

weight: 200.0

B- 2 slices bacon
L- bowl of machaca with sour cream and cheese
D- salmon baked with mayo, spinach salad

60 minutes hot yoga

3/15 eats

2009-03-15T09:06:00.001-07:00

weight: 201.0

B- 3 slices bacon
L- bowl machaca with sour cream and cheese
D- 6 buffalo wings, ranch dip, a few celery sticks

3/14 eats

2009-03-14T08:39:00.001-07:00

weight: 201.5

B- 5 slices bacon
D- 1/3 lb slab of salmon, sauteed spinach
S- 2 slices bacon

3/13 eats

2009-03-13T06:27:00.000-07:00

Weight: didn't weigh- sleepwalked into the shower

B- 2 eggs with ham and cheese
L- cup of chili
D- 8 buffalo wings with ranch

3/12 eats

2009-03-12T07:07:00.000-07:00

weight: 200.5

B- 2 slices bacon, coffee
L- 2 beef and provalone rollups, 3 slices bacon
D- 2 T natural peanut butter

3/11 eats

2009-03-11T07:21:00.001-07:00

Weight: 200.0

B- coffee, 3 slices bacon
L- 3 eggs with cheese and sour cream
D- bunless bacon cheeseburger

60 minutes gentle yoga

3/10 eats

2009-03-10T07:44:00.001-07:00

weight: 201.5 (double WTF??) *TOM started 7pm*

B- coffee, 4 slices bacon
L- 2 McDonalds double cheeseburgers, just cheese and beef
D- grilled chicken thigh

60 minutes gentle yoga

3/9 eats

2009-03-09T07:45:00.000-07:00

weight 201.5 (WTF?)

B- coffee, 2 sunny side up eggs, 3 slices bacon
D- 8 buffalo chicken wings with ranch

Exercise: 1 hour HOT yoga (in 98 degree room)

3/8 eats

2009-03-08T08:14:00.001-07:00

weight: 201.5

B- coffee, 2 sunny side up eggs, 3 slices bacon
D- grilled chuck steak with blue cheese dressing

3/7 eats

2009-03-07T11:45:00.001-08:00

weight: 202.0

B- coffee, flax muffin with butter
L- broiled chuck steak with blue cheese
D- grilled chicken thigh and small chuck steak

3/6 eats

2009-03-06T06:24:00.000-08:00

weight: 201.5

B- egg cream w/2 eggs, 4 slices bacon
L- 2 cheeseburger patties with mayo
D- cheeseburger patty with mayo, glass of red wine

3/5 eats

2009-03-05T10:34:00.000-08:00

weight: 203.0

B- coffee, 3 slices bacon
L- 2 hamburger patties with mayo
D- not hungry, so 2 glasses of water

3/4 eats

2009-03-04T07:00:00.000-08:00

weight: 202.5

B- coffee, 2.5 eggs scrambled with bacon and blue cheese(couldn't finish all 3)
L- egg cream with 2 eggs, HWC, coffee
D- broiled ribeye, water

70 minute gentle yoga class

3/3 eats

2009-03-03T07:16:00.001-08:00

Weight: 203.0

B- coffee, 4 strips bacon
L- leftover rotisserie chicken- maybe 1/2 breast with skin- not really hungry, but knew I needed to have something after yoga.
D- 10 hot wings with ranch, diet mountain dew

*60 minute Vinyasa yoga class*

3/2 eats

2009-03-02T07:41:00.000-08:00

weight: 204.0 *major 'C'*

B- coffee with hwc, 3 eggs scrambled with bacon and ranch
L-hamburger patty with mayo
D- chicken breast and thigh meat

3/1 eats

2009-03-01T08:14:00.000-08:00

weight: 204.0

B- coffee with HWC, grilled hamburger patty with mayo
L- grilled 6oz ribeye with 2T blue cheese dressing
D- 3 chicken/spinach brats- 1 carb each

2/28 eats

2009-02-28T09:03:00.001-08:00

weight: 205.0

B- 3 eggs scrambled with bacon and ranch, coffee
L- egg cream with 2 eggs and HWC
D- ribeye steak grilled with about 3 bites of sauteed spinach

2/27 eats

2009-02-27T06:32:00.001-08:00

weight: 204.5

B- coffee
B2- 2 egg omlette with bacon and cheese
L- 3 roast beef and provalone rollups, cheese stick
D- 6 buffalo wings, celery with ranch

2/26 eats

2009-02-26T06:45:00.001-08:00

weight: 204.5

*working 12 hour shift*
B- coffee
S- flax muffin with butter
L- 3 roast beef and provalone rollups, cheese stick
D- 2 scrambled eggs with bacon

2/25 eats

2009-02-25T15:23:00.001-08:00

weight: 205.5 (grrrrrr)

Brunch- 3 eggs scrambled with bacon crumbles and ranch dressing
S- glass of almond milk
D- pot roast, sauteed green beans, 1/8 cup cottage cheese

60 minute gentle yoga class

2/24 eats

2009-02-24T08:08:00.000-08:00

weight:205.5

B- coffee, 3 eggs with bacon and ranch dressing
L- 2 roast beef rollups
D- LC lasagna, glass of red wine

*70 minute gentle yoga class

2/23 eats

2009-02-23T07:54:00.000-08:00

weight: 205.5

B- coffee, flax muffin with butter, 2 beef and provalone rollups
L- wasn't hungry
D- monthly free meal- nachos, diet coke

2/22 eats

2009-02-22T07:56:00.000-08:00

weight: 205.5

B- coffee, flax muffin with butter
L- 2 beef and provalone rollups, cheese stick
D- buffalo wings with celery and ranch

2/21 eats

2009-02-21T09:16:00.001-08:00

weight: 205.5

B- coffee, 2 egg omlette with bacon and cheese
L- small bowl LC chili with cheese and sour cream
S- 1 cup unsweetened chocolate almond milk with SF davinci's
D- ribeye steak with sauteed mushrooms and green beans

2/20 eats

2009-02-20T06:44:00.001-08:00

weight: 206.0

B- coffee
B2- 2 egg omlette with ham and cheese
L-2 cheese sticks, flax muffin with butter
S- 1oz macadamia nuts
D- small bowl LC chili with cheese and sour cream

2/19 eats

2009-02-19T09:19:00.000-08:00

weight: 206.5

B- coffee
B2- flax muffin with butter
L- egg salad (3 eggs), cheese stick
D- small bowl LC chili with cheese and sour cream, glass of red wine

2/18 eats

2009-02-18T18:12:00.000-08:00

weight:207.0

B- tea, 2 slices bacon, flax muffin
L- chicken soup
D- chicken soup, hb egg, tea

2/17 eats

2009-02-17T15:07:00.000-08:00

weight: 207.0 (grrr)

Brunch- 3 eggs scrambled with Denver omlette toppings, 2 sausage patties
S- 2 slices bacon, flax muffin with butter
D- buffalo wings with ranch and celery

2/16 eats

2009-02-16T08:03:00.000-08:00

weight: 206.5

B- coffee, flax muffin with butter, 3 slices bacon
L- 2 wendy's double stacks, no bun or onions
D- LC oven fried chicken, 1/2 avacado, sauteed spinach

2/15 eats

2009-02-15T07:41:00.001-08:00

weight: 207.0

B- coffee, flax muffin with butter, 3 slices bacon
L- hamburger patty with provalone, mayo
D- LC oven fried chicken with steamed broccoli

2/14 eats

2009-02-14T11:56:00.000-08:00

Weight: 206.5

Happy Valentines Day/Happy 7 year remission day to Caleb!

B- coffee
L- BBQ pulled pork, string cheese, 3 slices bacon
D- ribeye, crab legs with butter, sauteed spinach, 2 glasses red wine
Dessert- 2oz cream cheese mixed with 1Tbs natural peanut butter and SF davinci's.

2/13 eats

2009-02-13T06:50:00.001-08:00

weight: 207.0

B- coffee, 2 egg omlette with bacon and cheese
S- flax muffin
L- pork stirfry
D- buffalo wings, celery, ranch, 1/2 glass red wine

2/12 eats

2009-02-12T08:41:00.000-08:00

weight: 207.0

*working 12 hour shift*
B- egg cream
B2- 2 egg omlette with bacon and cheese
L- pork stirfry, string cheese
D- bowl of pulled pork with LC BBQ sauce

2/11 eats

2009-02-11T14:49:00.001-08:00

weight: 208.0

B- 3 scrambled eggs with cheese, salsa, sour cream
L- 2 double stacks from Wendy's, with only cheese, mustard, pickles, NO buns
S- flax muffin with butter
D- polynesian marinated pork loin, steamed broccoli

2/10 eats

2009-02-10T11:59:00.001-08:00

weight: 209.0 (grr)

B- coffee, flax muffin with butter
L- 3 scrambled eggs with cheese, salsa, sour cream
D- 10 buffalo wings with celery and ranch
S- 2oz cream cheese and 1tbs natural peanut butter

2/9 eats

2009-02-09T08:17:00.000-08:00

weight: 209.0

B- flax muffin with butter, 2 fried eggs, coffee
L- 2 sliced beef and provalone rollups
D- broiled ribeye steak, sauteed green beans and mushrooms

2/8 eats

2009-02-08T18:34:00.001-08:00

weight: 209.0

B- egg cream
L- kosher hot dog, no bun
S- Mcdonalds bunless double cheeseburger
D- 2 chicken brats, sauteed spinach, 1/4 cup cottage cheese

Exercise: walked ~3 miles with DH.

2/7 eats

2009-02-07T09:39:00.001-08:00

weight: 209.0 *started TOM*

B- coffee with flax muffin, slice of roast beef lunch meat
L- *nauseous after a movie* Kashi bar (at theater), handful macadamia nuts
D- buffalo wings with ranch and celery

2/6 eats

2009-02-06T06:52:00.000-08:00

weight: 208.0

B- egg cream (normal)
B2- 2 egg omlette with ham and cheese
L- chicken breast and steamed broccoli with alfredo
D- noodle-less lasagna

2/5 eats

2009-02-05T06:38:00.000-08:00

weight: 209.0

B- egg cream (2 eggs, coffee, 1/2 cup almond milk, sf davinci's)
B2- 2 egg omlette with bacon and cheese
L- chicken breast and steamed broccoli with alfredo sauce
D- 1/2 slice LC lasagna

2/4 eats

2009-02-04T08:12:00.000-08:00

weight: 209.0

B- egg cream (2 eggs, 1/2 cup almond milk, coffee, sf davinci's), flax muffin with butter
L- 2 slices bacon, string cheese, 1/2 oz macadamia nuts
D- grilled ribeye steak, sauteed mushrooms and green beans

exercise- ~3 mile (1 hour) walk with DH

2/3 eats

2009-02-03T11:03:00.000-08:00

weight: 209.0

B- 2 scrambled eggs with bacon, coffee with sf davinci's
S- flax muffin with butter
L- beef and provalone roll ups
D- 7 buffalo wings with celery and ranch, 4oz Bud Lite (seriously, that's all I had)

2/2 eats

2009-02-02T08:06:00.000-08:00

weight: 209.5

B- coffee with sf davinci's, 2 scrambled eggs with bacon, cheese, ranch, flax muffin with butter
L- 2 beef and provalone roll ups
D- taco salad with guacamole, sour cream, cheese, salsa

2/1 eats

2009-02-01T08:28:00.000-08:00

weight: 210.0

B- 2 flax muffins with butter, coffee with Sf davinci's
L- 2 eggs scrambled with bacon bits, 1 slice cheddar cheese
D- pulled pork with SF BBQ sauce, sauteed green beans and mushrooms

1/31 eats

2009-01-31T12:20:00.001-08:00

Weight: 209.5

B- egg cream with 2 eggs, almond milk, coffee, sf davinci's
L- 2 egg omlette with bacon and cheddar cheese
S- 2 slices beef lunch meat and 1 slice provalone cheese
D- broiled steaks and sauteed spinach, glass of red wine

1/30 eats

2009-01-30T07:02:00.000-08:00

weight: 209.5

*working 12 hour shift*
B- egg cream (2 eggs, 1/2 cup almond milk, coffee, sf davinci's)
B2- 2 egg omlette with bacon and cheese
L- shredded chicken and steamed broccoli with alfredo sauce
D- 7 buffalo wings with celery and ranch, glass of red wine

1/29 eats

2009-01-29T06:09:00.001-08:00

Weight: 209.0

*working 12 hour shift*
B- egg cream (2 eggs, 1/2 cup almond milk, sf davinci's, coffee)
S- flax muffin with butter, herbal tea
L- chicken breast and steamed broccoli with 1/4 cup alfredo sauce
S- handful of cashews
D- bowl of LC chili (no beans) with shredded cheese and sour cream

1/28 eats

2009-01-28T13:13:00.000-08:00

weight: 210.0

B- egg cream (cup almond milk, 2 eggs, sf davinci's, cup of coffee, ice chips), flax muffin with butter
L- 2 eggs scrambled with 2T sausage and 2T ranch dressing
D- 1/2 lb (pre cooked) ground beef with taco seasonings, shredded cheese, guacamole, sour cream, glass of red wine

1/27 eats

2009-01-27T07:58:00.000-08:00

Weight: 210.5

B- coffee with SF french vanilla, flax muffin with butter, 2 sausage links
L- 2 eggs scrambled with 2T sausage crumbles, 2T ranch dressing
S- slice of deli ham, 1 cup unsweetened chocolate almond milk
D- roasted chicken leg and thigh, spinach salad with ranch

1/26 eats

2009-01-26T17:22:00.000-08:00

Weight: 212.5

B- 3 eggs scrambled with sausage and shredded cheese
L- slice of black forest ham
D- broiled sirloin steak, sauteed fresh spinach, glass of red wine

1/25 eats

2009-01-25T11:13:00.000-08:00

weight: 212.0

B- egg cream, coffee with sf french vanilla syrup
S- flax muffin with butter
L- beef fajita meat with blue cheese
D- 7 buffalo wings, celery sticks, ranch dressing

1/24 eats

2009-01-24T15:25:00.001-08:00

Weight: 213.5 (paying the price for nachos in water weight)

B (late)- Egg cream (2 eggs, 1/2 cup almond milk, 1 cup coffee, splash of sf syrup)
S- flax muffin with butter
S2- 2 string cheese with herbal tea
D- breakfast wrap- LC tortilla with 2 scrambled eggs, 1/4 cup sausage, cheese, 2tbs ranch dressing

1/23 eats

2009-01-23T10:35:00.000-08:00

weight: 211.0

B- coffee with sf french vanilla syrup, flax muffin with butter, 3 sausage links
L- chicken breast in hot sauce, ranch dressing on the side, diet coke
D- Nachos (yes, WAY off plan), diet coke

1/22 eats

2009-01-22T06:56:00.001-08:00

weight: 211.5

Working 12 hour shift
B- 3 sausage links, coffee with sf french vanilla syrup
S- flax meal muffin with butter
L- chicken breast with cream of mushroom sauce
S- handful of cashews
D- 2 chicken brats, 1/2 cup cottage cheese, glass of red wine

1/21 eats

2009-01-21T07:53:00.000-08:00

Weight: 211.0

B- Coffee with SF hazelnut syrup, 2 sausage links, flax muffin with butter
L- 2 McDonald's double cheeseburgers (no bun, no onion) made my stomach hurt for 3 hrs after
D- roasted chicken thigh/drumstick, salad with blue cheese dressing

1/20 Inauguration Day Eats

2009-01-20T07:39:00.000-08:00

weight: 211.5

B- coffee with SF hazelnut syrup, 2 sausages, flax muffin with butter.
L- kosher hot dog (no bun) with a bit of ketchup and mustard
S- small handful macadamia nuts
D- pork chop and broccoli with cream of mushroom sauce

1/19 eats

2009-01-19T07:31:00.000-08:00

weight: 212.0

B- coffee with SF french vanilla, 3 sausage links
L- 4oz pork chop, flax muffin with butter, can of diet pepsi
D- 8 hot wings, celery, ranch dressing

1/18 eats

2009-01-18T08:09:00.001-08:00

Weight: 212.0

B- 2 sausage links, flax muffin with butter, coffee with sf hazelnut syrup
L- small bowl of beef fajita meat with blue cheese dressing, can of DMD
D- pork chop, sauteed mushrooms, glass of red wine
S- herbal tea

1/17 eats

2009-01-17T11:46:00.001-08:00

Weight 213.0

B- 2 sausage links, coffee with sf hazelnut syrup
L- can of tuna, hardboiled egg, scoop of mayo, can of diet coke
D- spinach salad with 2 hardboiled eggs and about 1/3 cup fajita meat, glass of red wine

1/16 eats

2009-01-16T06:24:00.000-08:00

Weight: 212.0

*working 12 hour shift*
B- hazelnut coffee, 2 egg omlette with ham and cheese
S- flax muffin with butter
L- tuna and spinach salad with hardboiled egg and ranch dressing
S- handful of macadamia nuts
D- 5 buffalo wings, celery, ranch dressing, glass of red wine

Exercise: Put the discharge hat back on today, so I'm guessing I did well in excess of 10 miles of walking during my shift.

1/15 eats

2009-01-15T06:53:00.000-08:00

Weight: 212.0

*working 12 hour shift today*
B- coffee with sf french vanilla syrup, 3 sausage links
S- flax muffin with butter, herbal tea
L- spinach salad with turkey, hard boiled egg, blue cheese dressing; water
S- 1 handful macadamia nuts
D- 2 over easy eggs and 3 sausage links, glass of red wine

1/14 eats

2009-01-14T08:14:00.000-08:00

Weight: 214.0

B- coffee with sf french vanilla syrup, 3 sausage links, flax muffin with butter
L- baked chicken thigh, handful of macadamia nuts
D- 2 chicken thighs in marinara sauce, spinach and tomato salad with bleu cheese, 1 glass red wine

1/13 eats

2009-01-13T08:17:00.000-08:00

Weight: 214.0

B- coffee with SF hazelnut syrup, 2 sausage links, flax muffin with butter
L- 2-3 oz leftover pot roast, 1/2 cup cottage cheese
S- 2oz cashews, diet mountain dew
D- 8 hot wings, celery with ranch
S- herbal tea, 1/2 cup cottage cheese

1/12 eats

2009-01-12T07:50:00.000-08:00

Weight: 215.0

B- 2 sausage links, flax muffin with butter, coffee with SF hazelnut syrup
L- 4oz chicken breast with hot sauce and 2tbs bleu cheese dressing, 1 handful mixed cashews and macadamia nuts, can of diet mountain dew
D- chicken and broccoli in white wine sauce. Glass of red wine

Exercise: shoveling 6" of wet snow off my driveway

Today's eats

2009-01-11T20:12:00.000-08:00

My first goal is to blog everything I eat. All of it, even the bad shit. I know bad shit happens, but maybe forcing myself to write it down here will at least get me to think about if it is worth it.

I am following a low carb/low glycemic diet recommended to me by my doctor. I am not eating only red meat and butter, and I am not going to give myself a heart attack.

So without further ado, here we go!

Breakfast- 2 eggs, 2 sausage links 3 carbs
Lunch- 4oz chicken breast with hot sauce, 2tbs bleu cheese dressing.
1 flax muffin with butter
Snack- handful of roasted peanuts
Dinner- 6oz pot roast, 3/4 cup sauteed mushrooms, 1 glass red wine

All about me, pillows and blankets will be provided.

2009-01-11T20:07:00.000-08:00

There is nothing quite like a blank page, an idea about what you want to write, and having no words to put to paper. I'm going to spare you my life story, as for the most part its the story of thousands of girls throughout the country. I'll give you the highlights, fill in gaps as I see fit, and hope that I don't lose what few people may be reading this.

The quick and dirty:
28 years old, grew up in Alaska (great place to visit, don't want to live there again), met my now husband Caleb when I was 18, moved to Colorado, married him, adopted 2 evil cats, went to college, graduated, bought a house, quit my job, and am now a glorified housewife hoping to have kids in the near future. The catch is summed up in a word: cancer.

Cancer is something that has been a part of my existence for over 6 years now. In 2001, Caleb was diagnosed with it, and has brought us to where we are today. He went through 2 surgeries, 3 rounds of chemo, weeks of puking, weight loss, hair loss, and all he got was "congratulations, you're alive, but you're also infertile. Good thing you banked some sperm before you went into surgery". The cancer was in remission, but 6 years later, we are now having to deal with the infertile part.

Our journey to this point has been nearly a year long. We attempted many less invasive treatments this summer, but I did not respond. So now we are gearing up for Operation IVF, scheduled for summer 2009. My goal right now is to drop 30-40 pounds before we begin cycling. At this point, this is going to be a weightloss blog, that will likely morph into an IVF blog when the time comes. No lies, no excuses. Just me and my inner demons. The time has come for me to take care of me, so I can be the best spawnling growth unit possible.